Tuesday, July 21, 2009


Have you ever wanted something so bad, but didn't know how to get it? I'm not talking about anything as simple as, oh, a car or cloths, a vacation, a new house, money or fame. I'm talking about something that has the possibility of being eternal or long lasting. What I'm talking about is being able to touch another's life, become friends, make a difference, have an everlasting effect, give and show love in it's greatest form, charity, or the pure Love of Christ.

My Brother and his wife were blessed with a very special daughter, well, they have 3 of them actually, but the one that I am talking about right now died 8 months ago, her name is Brooke. A distance and busy families have kept us apart. I often felt very sad that we couldn't or didn't get together more. I always had more love for them then they ever new, but for some reason, the few times we saw each other didn't allow us to really share our lives. I've always wished for more.

While attending Brooke's funeral I felt, for the first time, the closeness, I knew that she and I were suppose to have, but never did. Our hearts touched for a moment in time.

A song had been recorded and played while things were getting ready. Concerto #2 Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini by Rachmaninoff. I immediately recognized this to be a magical moment, a moment that was mine and Brooke's. A moment unlike anything we'd ever shared. I closed my eyes in hopes of keeping this gift for as long as the giver would let me. I felt a softness come into my arms! Nothing needed to be said because everything that was ever needed was felt between both of us at that very moment. We just listened and felt the warmth of love cross between us as the power in this music healed our souls and gave us a hope for a better day.

It's amazing how our lives parallel with each other, and we don't even know it. I will never forget this, and a part of Brooke will be with me for the rest of my life and I hope a part of me will be with her.

I have the rest of my life to live and it will be dedicated in sharing the love that I feel for my family and friends.


  1. Okay Cindy, you have me tearing up here.
    Music again, healing and changing our lives.

    We all have had those lost chances to share our feelings and support to others, and we surely will have some in the future.

    I love how your last sentence says you have the rest of your life dedicated to share the love that's inside of you for your family and friends.
    I think that's what I learned on this past trip with the choir...to lift and inspire as much as possible, we all need it.
    In fact we just walked in the door from home depot and those were my thoughts riding home of all the people whom I have not taken the time to share love with and I am going to try harder now to do so.
    The shop takes alot of my time, however it can't take away the things that are most important going through this life from me.

    There are many ways... Brookes life was YOUR turning point. Not that your life hasn't been of service always, but we still know that we need to do more and we can.

  2. Cindy, that is beautiful and so are you...

  3. You asked me awhile ago to contact you so I could get on your private blog and I couldn't figure out how to do it. I even asked Brenda if she would ask for your email address. Anyway, I've been busy with the grandkids and everything but this morning I noticed that you've started this blog and I'm so glad it's not private so I can comment. You are so right about music and how it touches our lives for good and bad. We have a child who struggles with addictions which is very scarey when you're a parent and I would listen to the Women of Destiny CD's (LDS contemporary music) and found courage that I didn't know I had. Your blog is wonderful. I'll be back. Mimi

  4. A beautifully written post. I'm glad you were given that very special blessing and that you have it always.
    Thank you for stopping by today and leaving a footprint back to you.